Since everyone is putting their two cents into the gay marriage.
They deserve equality. Love is love. Let them love madly, truly, and happily. Let them have tough times together as a married couple and come out even stronger. Let them plan the wedding of their dreams! They aren't killing anyone by doing so. They want what we have. Besides, homosexuals divorce rate in other States, are a crap ton lower than heterosexual couples. They deserve to have families whether or not they do get married. And raise kids. Being gay is not a choice. They are born that way. Every single male that I know who is gay. said they knew they like little Tommy instead of sally when hey were in grade school. Now, if you think it is a choice. Being an asshole is a choice. And assholes still get married. So, let them. :)
Now, while I'm laying in bed feeling like I have been stabbed in the lower abdomen with mother nature smiling. Gunner has his feet across my chest, and cannot get comfy either. He keeps tossing and turning. Oh, I write this on my phone, by the way. I just wonder why so many douche nuggets out there give a shit about gay marriage!? Not so long ago interracial couples was a crime, folks that were not white had to ride in the back, had their own drinking fountains, bathrooms... etc. Not anymore. Women couldn't vote nor drive. Now we can. Well some women still suck at driving. I for one do not. But, we should let them get married! Who gives a flying fuck about what they do in the bedroom. Hell, have you seen a porn? 90% of those women do shit that most normal women cannot. Nor men. I bet the same people who are wierded out by breast feeding are against marriage for gays. Just shut the hell up. One, what they do inside the bedroom is their business like what a straight couple does in their room is their business. It is 2013. Not year 1200. Get with the program. Did you know that Julius Cesar liked men? Did you know that Napoleon did too? Just to let you know, IT HAS BEEN HAPPENING FOR A FUCKING EVER. I support it. I could care less if you don't. Just let them be happy. They aren't hitting on you, so get over yourselves.
I love my homosexual friends. They make me laugh, smile, and my friend MCL knows a lot about my life. Oh, do ya sell the crepes? Lol.
Neil Patrick Harris is gay. Some people still do not know that. Would never have known, huh? The man who plays Sheldon Cooper is too. Didn't know that for a while myself. They aren't killing anyone. They are Badass. Enough said.
Now, everyone. Shut up. Let em get married, have babies, have sex, whatever. They can even endure the miserable but I still love your stubborn ass kind of marriage that straight couples go through after 25-50 years of marriage. Love is love. No matter how, with who, or any of the sorts. I support it. You should too.
xoxox
Kylie.
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Monday, March 18, 2013
Girls want attention Women want RESPECT
Alrighty then. Let's see here. I have been dealing with the military and Douchebag for way too long now. He is about to be served with a fistful of justice and a chewing of the bum by his chain of command. It is what happens when you are a deadbeat and don't man up to your responsibilities.
Now, ladies. When you are in your skibbies and posting them on the Internet or covering your boobies with your hand and posting it on the world wide web. As in, Instagram or Facebok, I have ultimately no respect for you. Girls, as I will call you, must not realize that billions of people can see what you post. You will not find your dream man or any respectable man for that matter. If you are spreading your legs to everyone and their dogs. No one will want you. I for one see this crap all the time and they wonder why they cannot get a MAN with his priorities in check. Let's see why... cover your breasts, bottom, and speak a language we can understand. Yolo or Swag does not pay bills, does not sound classy, and above all, childish. You want a man!? Do not look in bars, clubs, or MLK Blvd. Hahaha. Had to. Had to. You want a Drake or Justin Bieber like man. Might ad well find a pimp. They might treat you like Chris Brown. Or a pimp. Find a man who is ready to love, settle down, and had his life in order. No one wants my ex husband. I'll tell you that much. A 27 year old manchild. He has more debt, and affairs than I can count.
I for one want a man who will be laid back, converse with me, hang out, does not mind that I have a toddler, loves me for me, respects, supports, and cares for me. I, in return shall do the same. I love and care deeply when my heart is open. It is pretty hard to let my hopes up, knock my guard down or anything for that matter. Now, lets say you tell me, I am all you think about, cannot get me off of your head at work, and care for me. (When I am into you as well) and start being standoffish. I will stand back. Let you breathe, get your head in check, understand you have a lot on your plate, as well as mine, and be on my merry way. So simple! I am an open ear for everyone and a shoulder to lean on when you have a rough day. Regardless of friendship or whatever. Back to square one and be awesome. Even though I would like to know if I did or said something to make you stand offish. Shit, I am AMAZING. I put my child first, work, have my priorities in order, have a job, and bust my ass. I will check on you and make sure you are doing quite dandy for the day and be good. Easy, right? Yes.
I am a simple girl. I like you to remember certain dates. Pop in with a card or an acknowledgement that I exist on those dates and be fine. I love to cuddle and hold hands. And give kisses. Seriously, wine and star wars. I am 100% OKAY with that. Why!? I love it. Last weekend, I seriously sat at the house on St. Paddy's day and snuggled with my son! That was a lot more fun than getting drunk. Trust me. I don't babysit overgrown 20-30 something year old children. Handle your own. And know your limits. Don't do drugs and excessive alcohol. I swear we will be good. And I love to cook. Let me cook for you. Seriously. I could end world hunger with my cooking. Care about hygenie. Please. I like a man who takes care of himself. Doesn't mind to get some grease on him. Just smell good for Christ sake.
Now I know I am pretty awesome. I don't have many fucks to give. Do NOT need a manual with me. And am pretty straight forward. But, I have insecurities like all women. I look in the mirror and want a toned core that I work hard to get. And push for that goal. I want to look like a super sexy woman. I am pretty already. but, to be hot damn. That's what I want. I want to not feel like I can be out of your league. Which I seriously feel like to any man I think I'd date. Most women go, I don't know how I got you. You are amazing. It is because, you both are fucking fabulous together. And make others want to vomit with how cute you are. And that right there is what I want. Haha. Oh God, so much cute!! Just ready to settle down. If you throw a hissy fit, I will give you a beer, have you sit in the other room, breathe, and work this shit out. Divorce sucks. I never want to go through it again. Ever. Now. I am on team forever alone. Woo!
Not going to rush, just taking my time. Waiting for someone to sweep me off my feet, and have the best for Top Gun and I.
Women. Respect a man. And have a mature conversation and dress like a woman, have goals and ambitions, I swear you will have respect and a man. Act like a 15 year old at a HS party. Then, that's what you will get.
Xoxox
Kylie
Now, ladies. When you are in your skibbies and posting them on the Internet or covering your boobies with your hand and posting it on the world wide web. As in, Instagram or Facebok, I have ultimately no respect for you. Girls, as I will call you, must not realize that billions of people can see what you post. You will not find your dream man or any respectable man for that matter. If you are spreading your legs to everyone and their dogs. No one will want you. I for one see this crap all the time and they wonder why they cannot get a MAN with his priorities in check. Let's see why... cover your breasts, bottom, and speak a language we can understand. Yolo or Swag does not pay bills, does not sound classy, and above all, childish. You want a man!? Do not look in bars, clubs, or MLK Blvd. Hahaha. Had to. Had to. You want a Drake or Justin Bieber like man. Might ad well find a pimp. They might treat you like Chris Brown. Or a pimp. Find a man who is ready to love, settle down, and had his life in order. No one wants my ex husband. I'll tell you that much. A 27 year old manchild. He has more debt, and affairs than I can count.
I for one want a man who will be laid back, converse with me, hang out, does not mind that I have a toddler, loves me for me, respects, supports, and cares for me. I, in return shall do the same. I love and care deeply when my heart is open. It is pretty hard to let my hopes up, knock my guard down or anything for that matter. Now, lets say you tell me, I am all you think about, cannot get me off of your head at work, and care for me. (When I am into you as well) and start being standoffish. I will stand back. Let you breathe, get your head in check, understand you have a lot on your plate, as well as mine, and be on my merry way. So simple! I am an open ear for everyone and a shoulder to lean on when you have a rough day. Regardless of friendship or whatever. Back to square one and be awesome. Even though I would like to know if I did or said something to make you stand offish. Shit, I am AMAZING. I put my child first, work, have my priorities in order, have a job, and bust my ass. I will check on you and make sure you are doing quite dandy for the day and be good. Easy, right? Yes.
I am a simple girl. I like you to remember certain dates. Pop in with a card or an acknowledgement that I exist on those dates and be fine. I love to cuddle and hold hands. And give kisses. Seriously, wine and star wars. I am 100% OKAY with that. Why!? I love it. Last weekend, I seriously sat at the house on St. Paddy's day and snuggled with my son! That was a lot more fun than getting drunk. Trust me. I don't babysit overgrown 20-30 something year old children. Handle your own. And know your limits. Don't do drugs and excessive alcohol. I swear we will be good. And I love to cook. Let me cook for you. Seriously. I could end world hunger with my cooking. Care about hygenie. Please. I like a man who takes care of himself. Doesn't mind to get some grease on him. Just smell good for Christ sake.
Now I know I am pretty awesome. I don't have many fucks to give. Do NOT need a manual with me. And am pretty straight forward. But, I have insecurities like all women. I look in the mirror and want a toned core that I work hard to get. And push for that goal. I want to look like a super sexy woman. I am pretty already. but, to be hot damn. That's what I want. I want to not feel like I can be out of your league. Which I seriously feel like to any man I think I'd date. Most women go, I don't know how I got you. You are amazing. It is because, you both are fucking fabulous together. And make others want to vomit with how cute you are. And that right there is what I want. Haha. Oh God, so much cute!! Just ready to settle down. If you throw a hissy fit, I will give you a beer, have you sit in the other room, breathe, and work this shit out. Divorce sucks. I never want to go through it again. Ever. Now. I am on team forever alone. Woo!
Not going to rush, just taking my time. Waiting for someone to sweep me off my feet, and have the best for Top Gun and I.
Women. Respect a man. And have a mature conversation and dress like a woman, have goals and ambitions, I swear you will have respect and a man. Act like a 15 year old at a HS party. Then, that's what you will get.
Xoxox
Kylie
Monday, March 11, 2013
I'd ride an AT-AT wielding Thor's hammer into battle; while the Cantins Bar music is playing for you .
So, as I sit here in the nurses station currently listening to Carrie Underwood's, Blown Away... I think I would love to be rocking out with a kareoke machine with the fellow co-workers. That right there would be entertaining as hell. I would give myself a medal for bestscreech owl attempting to sing some Dixie Chicks or something.
Now, I did some facts the other day about myself. I should do goofy facts right now and some other random crap. Why? I'm awesome, and the funniest person EVER.
1. I LOVE to cook and bake. Fool, I would make you as fat as Jabba the Hut. I just have noone to bake for except my child. And my fat ass is addicted to cookies. Lay out some chocolate chip right now, so I can stare and wish I could eat one.
2. Applesauce. And Avacadoes. Not together. But I seriously could live off of those lovely consumptions. Nom nom nom.
3. I wish my ex would get sprayed by a skunk. He would smell as repulsive as he is.
4. I cannot get this one person off my head. I seriously have this butterfly feeling when I talk to him. Holy crap, Kylie. Get it together.
5. I wish I could race in NASCAR. yes. Nascar. When I was little I wanted to badly.
6. I love the outdoors. Camping. Hunting. Fishing. All of that. If you didn't know that, or don't like that, I am dragging you camping in a TENT. Screw that RV crap.
7. I love to dance. Whether it be in my underwear, at work, the car, or in a class. ANYWHERE. I love it. I probably scare people at stoplights I do dance. All sexy like. White girl style. Holler girlllll. Haha.
8. I laugh super easily. I mean it is not hard at all.
9. I have this weird obsession with pumpkins and fall in general. the word obsessed doesn't even cover it. Oh, I love lilies. Tigerlily especially.
10. Blake Shelton. So, his music since I was 11 has been legit. God Gave Me You is my song to Gunner. Gunner makes my days better. If he wasn't married to my woman crush, Miranda Lambert. I would rape him. Hahaha. Tie him up to my bed post and leave him there. ;)
11. Disney movies, Star Wars, Comics. Hello you nerds. I am a closet nerd. I seriously love everything about it all. I get more excited about Disneyland than most 5 year olds. Move outta my way children. The space mountain is calling my name. Tower of Terror!! I wanna ride that without freaking out.
12. I have a love hate relationship with scary movies. Or needles nor anything that will freak me out. I can watch the Hills Have Eyes. But I cannot watch the Ring. Hell, I couldn't even watch a guy put a needle through his arm on this show called, freakshow last week I literally cowered into a ball. I am a pansy with a a capital P.
13. When I am in a relationship or keen on someone. I love kissing. God. I am a kisser. Pecks on the cheek, mouth, forehead. Wake up and kiss you gently. I am a passionate person. I have a thing for guys that are bald or have facial hair. Or both! Haha! But, in all seriousness. I love cuddling, and kissing. Cuddles, kissing, holding hands. Best. Ever. :)
14. I sound like a boy hitting puberty when flowers bloom in spring. Damn those Bradford pear trees. I sound horrid for a month. Cannot breathe. Cannot sleep. Sound like an idiot. I might as well sound like the creep ass that breathes down your neck in movies. Because, that is me for a while in spring.
15. Last but not least, I seriously would not mind shoving my square toes boots up a couple women's asses. They need a damn reality check. Ha! Get the absolute hell over yourself. And grow up. I just sit there in silence wondering where they turned for the worst being like that, sucking at life, and who raised them to be idiots. Oh, some men are on that list too. Just complete moronic humans are out there. Epic facepalm.
Love me or hate me. Now, don't go parking like a fucktard who got clawed in the privates by a ferret trying to park while on your cellphone. I will leave notes on how bad you park. Stevie Wonder probably parks better than some people I have came out next to parked by my car. Ha!!
Xoxox
Kylie.
Now, I did some facts the other day about myself. I should do goofy facts right now and some other random crap. Why? I'm awesome, and the funniest person EVER.
1. I LOVE to cook and bake. Fool, I would make you as fat as Jabba the Hut. I just have noone to bake for except my child. And my fat ass is addicted to cookies. Lay out some chocolate chip right now, so I can stare and wish I could eat one.
2. Applesauce. And Avacadoes. Not together. But I seriously could live off of those lovely consumptions. Nom nom nom.
3. I wish my ex would get sprayed by a skunk. He would smell as repulsive as he is.
4. I cannot get this one person off my head. I seriously have this butterfly feeling when I talk to him. Holy crap, Kylie. Get it together.
5. I wish I could race in NASCAR. yes. Nascar. When I was little I wanted to badly.
6. I love the outdoors. Camping. Hunting. Fishing. All of that. If you didn't know that, or don't like that, I am dragging you camping in a TENT. Screw that RV crap.
7. I love to dance. Whether it be in my underwear, at work, the car, or in a class. ANYWHERE. I love it. I probably scare people at stoplights I do dance. All sexy like. White girl style. Holler girlllll. Haha.
8. I laugh super easily. I mean it is not hard at all.
9. I have this weird obsession with pumpkins and fall in general. the word obsessed doesn't even cover it. Oh, I love lilies. Tigerlily especially.
10. Blake Shelton. So, his music since I was 11 has been legit. God Gave Me You is my song to Gunner. Gunner makes my days better. If he wasn't married to my woman crush, Miranda Lambert. I would rape him. Hahaha. Tie him up to my bed post and leave him there. ;)
11. Disney movies, Star Wars, Comics. Hello you nerds. I am a closet nerd. I seriously love everything about it all. I get more excited about Disneyland than most 5 year olds. Move outta my way children. The space mountain is calling my name. Tower of Terror!! I wanna ride that without freaking out.
12. I have a love hate relationship with scary movies. Or needles nor anything that will freak me out. I can watch the Hills Have Eyes. But I cannot watch the Ring. Hell, I couldn't even watch a guy put a needle through his arm on this show called, freakshow last week I literally cowered into a ball. I am a pansy with a a capital P.
13. When I am in a relationship or keen on someone. I love kissing. God. I am a kisser. Pecks on the cheek, mouth, forehead. Wake up and kiss you gently. I am a passionate person. I have a thing for guys that are bald or have facial hair. Or both! Haha! But, in all seriousness. I love cuddling, and kissing. Cuddles, kissing, holding hands. Best. Ever. :)
14. I sound like a boy hitting puberty when flowers bloom in spring. Damn those Bradford pear trees. I sound horrid for a month. Cannot breathe. Cannot sleep. Sound like an idiot. I might as well sound like the creep ass that breathes down your neck in movies. Because, that is me for a while in spring.
15. Last but not least, I seriously would not mind shoving my square toes boots up a couple women's asses. They need a damn reality check. Ha! Get the absolute hell over yourself. And grow up. I just sit there in silence wondering where they turned for the worst being like that, sucking at life, and who raised them to be idiots. Oh, some men are on that list too. Just complete moronic humans are out there. Epic facepalm.
Love me or hate me. Now, don't go parking like a fucktard who got clawed in the privates by a ferret trying to park while on your cellphone. I will leave notes on how bad you park. Stevie Wonder probably parks better than some people I have came out next to parked by my car. Ha!!
Xoxox
Kylie.
Sunday, March 10, 2013
The Facts of Life, Kids!!
I am going to do something a little different... Facts about me.
1. I just started getting back into running. To look good for myself, to look as good as a Victoria Secret Angel, and hopefully look good enough for someone where they won't freaking cower and run away when I am in a bikini.... or better yet.... if I ever get into a relationship... Cheat on me... dammit.
2. I live in a family where sweets are their weakness. Now that I am healthy, Gunner and I get frozen yogurt once a week for my "cheat day". We LOVE ICE CREAM!! MY fat kid engages then. and cinnamon applesauce will do until goal acquired....
3. I love my son more than I will love anyone. More than anyone in my family, more than you, more than my future husband. More than Luke Bryan shaking his butt. I love my son to infinity and beyond!!
4. I have a love/hate relationship with my job. If I got a $5 pay raise I would love my job until someone pops my back again.
5. I love tornado season. YES. Bethani and I would pop in the car, go chase em. Now, I don't love it when I was so pregnant I had to push my mom out of the way so my 8 1/2 month pregnant self could run from getting hit in the head with hail into the cellar. That was humorous right there.
6. I care a lot. When I let you into my life, I start caring from day one. Friends, relationship wise. No matter what. If you are in a bind. I will help out with some money, fixing your tire, anything. I seem to not give any fucks lately. Divorce does that to you. But, deep down, I care about everyone. I worry a lot about some people if they are feeling harm, causing harm to oneself, depressed, angry. I try and find a way to help fix the situation. When I start to love someone. I love deeply. Just enough to give you your damn space though.
7. My biggest fear is I will die lonely. As in no husband no family around. I see things like this at the hospital and would want loved ones around me.
8. I seriously pray that Gunner's dad will man up and be there one day for him. I want a father figure in his life that will love him as much as me. Seeing Matthew not being there at all, not even child support wise, not even a phone call wise, KILLS ME. I don't get how people can abandon their child.
9. I seriously hate dieting. I want my results so, I stick to it. While I want to drown myself in wine when I step on the scale at my numbers... It is a lot better than 43 pounds ago!
But, If I didn't want to look like a Victoria's Secret Angel, gotta push towards it! Now, I already am a semi-sexy woman. Just could look better! Owning my curves while I have em.
10. I was in a horrible depression for a very long time. I got out of that rut in August-ish. I have anxiety and I could care less what you think about that. At least I don't have a bizarre foot fetish.
1. I just started getting back into running. To look good for myself, to look as good as a Victoria Secret Angel, and hopefully look good enough for someone where they won't freaking cower and run away when I am in a bikini.... or better yet.... if I ever get into a relationship... Cheat on me... dammit.
2. I live in a family where sweets are their weakness. Now that I am healthy, Gunner and I get frozen yogurt once a week for my "cheat day". We LOVE ICE CREAM!! MY fat kid engages then. and cinnamon applesauce will do until goal acquired....
3. I love my son more than I will love anyone. More than anyone in my family, more than you, more than my future husband. More than Luke Bryan shaking his butt. I love my son to infinity and beyond!!
4. I have a love/hate relationship with my job. If I got a $5 pay raise I would love my job until someone pops my back again.
5. I love tornado season. YES. Bethani and I would pop in the car, go chase em. Now, I don't love it when I was so pregnant I had to push my mom out of the way so my 8 1/2 month pregnant self could run from getting hit in the head with hail into the cellar. That was humorous right there.
6. I care a lot. When I let you into my life, I start caring from day one. Friends, relationship wise. No matter what. If you are in a bind. I will help out with some money, fixing your tire, anything. I seem to not give any fucks lately. Divorce does that to you. But, deep down, I care about everyone. I worry a lot about some people if they are feeling harm, causing harm to oneself, depressed, angry. I try and find a way to help fix the situation. When I start to love someone. I love deeply. Just enough to give you your damn space though.
7. My biggest fear is I will die lonely. As in no husband no family around. I see things like this at the hospital and would want loved ones around me.
8. I seriously pray that Gunner's dad will man up and be there one day for him. I want a father figure in his life that will love him as much as me. Seeing Matthew not being there at all, not even child support wise, not even a phone call wise, KILLS ME. I don't get how people can abandon their child.
9. I seriously hate dieting. I want my results so, I stick to it. While I want to drown myself in wine when I step on the scale at my numbers... It is a lot better than 43 pounds ago!
But, If I didn't want to look like a Victoria's Secret Angel, gotta push towards it! Now, I already am a semi-sexy woman. Just could look better! Owning my curves while I have em.
10. I was in a horrible depression for a very long time. I got out of that rut in August-ish. I have anxiety and I could care less what you think about that. At least I don't have a bizarre foot fetish.
Friday, February 22, 2013
I feel as no matter how hard I try, I will never be good enough
My title is true. I feel like I am way too nice to people and get screwed in return. Whether it be with friends. Or trying to get in a relationship. I don't blow up your phone. I don't act like a crazed fan at a Twilight premiere. I will be fine if I don't talk to you for days or weeks. But, after a bit... my feelings start getting confused. The biggest thing I hear why no one would date me is because I have a son. I never say, hey!! will you step up and be a dad. Since my ex is not in the picture. I don't like it when my guy friends or chick friends offer to help. I get super stubborn and knowing he is my child. I should do all the work. I am me. If you like it. Awesome. If you don't. Too damn bad. I won't change for anyone. I put my son first. He is my absolutely number one thing in my life. Friends come and go. I have become more brutally honest since my divorce. All because I don't give a care to give on what you think. You don't like the truth? Get over it. Would you rather be lied to forever!? No. Some of my friends make me want to take some tylenol pm and relax. Haha.
Men. It really isn't that complex to figure me out. Most women need a damn manual. When I don't have my son. I like to cook, bake, cuddle, watch movies, be awesome together. And preferablly you have to like the Chive like I. I am a tad obsessed with that site. I like wine, whiskey, and brews. I love star wars, Disney, Will Farrell movies, and kissing. I am a huge kisser. I love conversations, and pretty much relaxing on the couch with you. I don't care about clubs at all. I go to the bar once in a blue moon. All I ask is remember certain dates. Even if it is a dang card on my birthday I would be stoked. Not that hard, is it? Preferably hate Valentine's Day as much as me. Oh! Please like video games!! And please know how to at least change a tire on your vehicle. :) I don't need to show you up!! ;)
Women. Stop being psychotic bitches. Please. You worry about them going to the bar. Not calling you every single night. GET OVER YOURSELVES. they have lives. You have lives. Don't be a damn hypocrite when it comes to shit. Most of you women I would push into he ocean during a jellyfish warning to get it through your heads. If you don't like it that they Ste having a guys night drinking beer and playing some Borderlands 2. Join in. At least he ain't cheating on you.
Now, I ask myself how can someone like I be single? How can someone as awesome as me be alone? easy. I wont settle. don't do drugs. Don't be an idiot. I want to settle down. If I get in a relationship. It hopefully will be long term. why get in one if it is just a short term one? No point. I have my eye on someone. And hopefully he is attracted to me... but I will let it fall into place. It's all up to our fate. Noe. While I go get ready for sleep. Enjoy my blog.
KCCO.
Kylie.
Xoxox
Men. It really isn't that complex to figure me out. Most women need a damn manual. When I don't have my son. I like to cook, bake, cuddle, watch movies, be awesome together. And preferablly you have to like the Chive like I. I am a tad obsessed with that site. I like wine, whiskey, and brews. I love star wars, Disney, Will Farrell movies, and kissing. I am a huge kisser. I love conversations, and pretty much relaxing on the couch with you. I don't care about clubs at all. I go to the bar once in a blue moon. All I ask is remember certain dates. Even if it is a dang card on my birthday I would be stoked. Not that hard, is it? Preferably hate Valentine's Day as much as me. Oh! Please like video games!! And please know how to at least change a tire on your vehicle. :) I don't need to show you up!! ;)
Women. Stop being psychotic bitches. Please. You worry about them going to the bar. Not calling you every single night. GET OVER YOURSELVES. they have lives. You have lives. Don't be a damn hypocrite when it comes to shit. Most of you women I would push into he ocean during a jellyfish warning to get it through your heads. If you don't like it that they Ste having a guys night drinking beer and playing some Borderlands 2. Join in. At least he ain't cheating on you.
Now, I ask myself how can someone like I be single? How can someone as awesome as me be alone? easy. I wont settle. don't do drugs. Don't be an idiot. I want to settle down. If I get in a relationship. It hopefully will be long term. why get in one if it is just a short term one? No point. I have my eye on someone. And hopefully he is attracted to me... but I will let it fall into place. It's all up to our fate. Noe. While I go get ready for sleep. Enjoy my blog.
KCCO.
Kylie.
Xoxox
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Whatever you do... don't kill anyone.
Yeah, today I am going to write about pregnancy. I am far from it. I don't plan on having another until my ass is happy with someone and Gunner is a good age. Financially stable as well. As I write this. Do not drink anything. (it'll spray across your screen.) Do not piss your pants. (I don't need that, actually... go ahead.) MORE HUMOR FOR ME :)
No one gave me a damn manual when it came to looking like a beached beluga whale with the world's biggest blessing growing inside of my belly! :) Now, I gave birth in July. It was 115 the day before I popped. I would walk around Bricktown with Gunner's sperm donor, bouncing, in labor every single day for two weeks! I even bed rid myself for two days. I couldn't take it anymore! I wanted to meet my little man. I was in labor for 4.5 hours. Jackson women are made for having kids. Not the 10 pant sizes I gained in my hips. Oh baby bearing hips. More like a cruise ship would sink if they hit my thighs!! I didn't even want them telling me how much I gained anymore. I would step on and cover my ears. I didn't start really showing until 7 1/2 months but still. That awkward are you pregnant or just a fat kid who loves food so much stage was not pleasant.
The day we found out isn't how everyone else finds out or wants to. Sitting there anxiously or worried looking at a stick covered in your urine. No. It was Kylie, you blacked out, stopped breathing, and I rushed you to the ER, because you fainted twice. Oh. I had a cyst the size of Mt. Rushmore burst on my left ovary. My body couldn't handle the pain. So, there I went... They took urine specimens and blood, Came in all nonchalantly and said, Ms. Jackson you are pregnant. I gave her the look of WHAT THE HELL?! And glared down Douchenugget. I was happy, nervous, scared, nauseated, excited, angry, and shocked. The RN had the audacity to ask me, Would you like an abortion? We can perform one here. I WANT TO KEEP MY CHILD. You sure? Yes, I am sure. What the hell kind of question is that? It is Hawaii after all... Matt went out and smoked about a pack of cigarettes why I sit there staring into oblivion wondering when and where. Then My OBGYN. Dr. Shimomura (coolest dude on island!) Took me up to ultrasound to make sure I didn't have an ectopic pregnancy. Told me how far along I was, and the date I got pregnant. I literally looked at Matt, jaw open and said, I know what day that was. I drank enough to make my birth control not work. I don't remember getting home from the bar hopping. Our roommate TJ told me I was stupid to keep a baby and think of adoption or abortion. I was too young. Yes, 20 is young. I was ready. I made the decision to keep the biggest blessing in my life. I look at him now as he is laying on his Lightning McQueen couch/bed thing. I wouldn't change him for the world. The terrible two stage is driving me nuts sometimes. But, I love him to death. I don't regret any decision with Gunner. He has made me a better human being. I grew up and know he is my number one priority.
Now, you go home beaming with happiness and call everyone. I called my mom, there was silence on the phone. I awkwardly said, I'm sorry? I don't know what to say... 2 weeks later... she was stoked! Now, not everyone was excited. Some people wanted us to come drinking and partying. I would decline and go to sleep.
No one tells you that you are narcoleptic as shit, hungry like a 15 year old boy hitting puberty, and your nose will bleed randomly and uncontrollably. I ate enough food to make the sailors in the household wonder where I stored it. My boobs, my thighs, and obviously my child.
You read the book "What To Expect When You're Expecting" and wonder who the fuck came up with some of this?! How in God's name was blowing air into your vagina from getting oral can kill your child. or How a turkey sandwich from Panera Bread might make you sick and harm your baby. Guess what? I ate Panera Bread. Don't care. I was pregnant. I will do what I want. No sushi or some catfish. I am not that stupid. I swear that book put me on edge. I would measure out 8 oz of oj and drink only that 8 oz a day. I stopped drinking Mt. Dew and Dr. Pepper. No coffee, which seemed to kill me. I was tired ALL THE TIME! I still am. haha.
Some people vomit at the smell or site of something. Oatmeal. Yup, oatmeal, looked like Oliver Twist's meal every single day. Yuck I still have issues wanting to eat it. Broccoli. Eff you. I will not even say the word. Green tree of death is more like it. I never once was visiting the Porcelain God though. Just felt queezy. :)
Now you can either look adorable or like a 75 year old woman when pregnant. Mom jeans. that are 60 bucks a pop for pregnancy. and some lame ass shirts from motherhood. Forever 21 baby!! haha. I fit in my clothes until 5 months. I used the rubberband around my button so I wouldn't have to look like a fool. Oh but I did. I looked like a member from Teen Mom. I looked like a wee little lass knocked up. With what looked like a small alien at 10 weeks. Cute little one at that!! Then You don't buy comfortable bras because your boobs are growing to the size of Mother Russia. Sore, itchy, killing your back! No one tells you that you will love and hate your boobs at the same time.
I was an emotional roller coaster. I cried about rain in Hawaii. Ruined my plans for the beach! I was so mad. I cried. Who cries over rain?! Really?! It rained EVERY SINGLE DAY THERE! I cried during certain songs. Other kids tripping over themselves. Youtube videos of this and that. Love stories... Yes, love stories.
When you are reading some of this book to the baby daddy and you wonder if his penis decided to tuck into his stomach and not come out because of what your va jay jay will look like after birth, or something so beautiful being pushed out a hole the size of a marble.
Birthing Videos.... Oh good god! Hi, no. just no. NEXT!
Laughing so hard you piddle your pants. Yes, My father told me about his first job ever in Cali when he was 16 at a KFC, and I died so hard... I went, Oops. Ran to the bathroom as I am trickling myself. and barely made it to the toilet. I did a couple times. And you don't stop laughing either. Everyone has stopped and you are sitting there snorting like a hog laughing your ass off at something that ended years ago, in a movie scene flashback, jokes, youtube videos, the works!!
Feeling your child move for the first time is not as cute as you think. You are freaked out, WHAT JUST HAPPENED!? Then you realize you felt a butterfly flutter inside and it was your bundle of happiness moving! MOVING?! Yes. moving. And you become enlightened and glowing and telling everyone in the household what just happened.
The rest is pretty much simple, miserable and huge, Ready to push a watermelon out of your va jay jay as you get your 12" needle down your back and a happy button for drugs so you don't feel your child coming out of said hole while you are shaking like you are about to have a seizure because your body is about to go through a huge change and NO ONE TOLD ME THAT!! Then your doctor is cutting you open and going to stitch you back up with a hooked needle. Holding your loved one's hands and pushing, praying you don't poop on the doc's face or on any of the nurses. Oh! and your water breaking is the best feeling of relief ever. Until about a minute later...
You hear that first cry and you start bawling! Happy tears! I was so happy and speechless. I didn't even know what to say. I just said, Hello, Gunner. and held his adorable little hand while his fingers wrapped around my index finger. Passing him back off to the nurses who are bathing him and the sloo of family members that come in there and you don't know if you are still urinating everywhere while the epidural is wearing off. All you want to do is hold your child and everyone is still holding them while everyone is encouraging you to eat and you don't wanna vomit everywhere all over because food is just a NO.
Your RN comes in and baby daddy takes the baby so you can get up and go to the bathroom and attempt this gangster limp thing you have going on because you are swollen, look like your nose is broken, and just dropped 25 pounds... lol. You then sit on the pot with you RN there staring at you making sure you are emptying your bladder and douching yourself with warm water bottle into your stitches and doing this for the next 7 days.
I love my child and everything. I LOVED being pregnant. The summer heat here in OK didn't want me to be the last month of it. I didn't enjoy the random people coming up and touching my belly. No. NEVER EVER DO THAT. EVER.
No one gave me a damn manual when it came to looking like a beached beluga whale with the world's biggest blessing growing inside of my belly! :) Now, I gave birth in July. It was 115 the day before I popped. I would walk around Bricktown with Gunner's sperm donor, bouncing, in labor every single day for two weeks! I even bed rid myself for two days. I couldn't take it anymore! I wanted to meet my little man. I was in labor for 4.5 hours. Jackson women are made for having kids. Not the 10 pant sizes I gained in my hips. Oh baby bearing hips. More like a cruise ship would sink if they hit my thighs!! I didn't even want them telling me how much I gained anymore. I would step on and cover my ears. I didn't start really showing until 7 1/2 months but still. That awkward are you pregnant or just a fat kid who loves food so much stage was not pleasant.
The day we found out isn't how everyone else finds out or wants to. Sitting there anxiously or worried looking at a stick covered in your urine. No. It was Kylie, you blacked out, stopped breathing, and I rushed you to the ER, because you fainted twice. Oh. I had a cyst the size of Mt. Rushmore burst on my left ovary. My body couldn't handle the pain. So, there I went... They took urine specimens and blood, Came in all nonchalantly and said, Ms. Jackson you are pregnant. I gave her the look of WHAT THE HELL?! And glared down Douchenugget. I was happy, nervous, scared, nauseated, excited, angry, and shocked. The RN had the audacity to ask me, Would you like an abortion? We can perform one here. I WANT TO KEEP MY CHILD. You sure? Yes, I am sure. What the hell kind of question is that? It is Hawaii after all... Matt went out and smoked about a pack of cigarettes why I sit there staring into oblivion wondering when and where. Then My OBGYN. Dr. Shimomura (coolest dude on island!) Took me up to ultrasound to make sure I didn't have an ectopic pregnancy. Told me how far along I was, and the date I got pregnant. I literally looked at Matt, jaw open and said, I know what day that was. I drank enough to make my birth control not work. I don't remember getting home from the bar hopping. Our roommate TJ told me I was stupid to keep a baby and think of adoption or abortion. I was too young. Yes, 20 is young. I was ready. I made the decision to keep the biggest blessing in my life. I look at him now as he is laying on his Lightning McQueen couch/bed thing. I wouldn't change him for the world. The terrible two stage is driving me nuts sometimes. But, I love him to death. I don't regret any decision with Gunner. He has made me a better human being. I grew up and know he is my number one priority.
Now, you go home beaming with happiness and call everyone. I called my mom, there was silence on the phone. I awkwardly said, I'm sorry? I don't know what to say... 2 weeks later... she was stoked! Now, not everyone was excited. Some people wanted us to come drinking and partying. I would decline and go to sleep.
No one tells you that you are narcoleptic as shit, hungry like a 15 year old boy hitting puberty, and your nose will bleed randomly and uncontrollably. I ate enough food to make the sailors in the household wonder where I stored it. My boobs, my thighs, and obviously my child.
You read the book "What To Expect When You're Expecting" and wonder who the fuck came up with some of this?! How in God's name was blowing air into your vagina from getting oral can kill your child. or How a turkey sandwich from Panera Bread might make you sick and harm your baby. Guess what? I ate Panera Bread. Don't care. I was pregnant. I will do what I want. No sushi or some catfish. I am not that stupid. I swear that book put me on edge. I would measure out 8 oz of oj and drink only that 8 oz a day. I stopped drinking Mt. Dew and Dr. Pepper. No coffee, which seemed to kill me. I was tired ALL THE TIME! I still am. haha.
Some people vomit at the smell or site of something. Oatmeal. Yup, oatmeal, looked like Oliver Twist's meal every single day. Yuck I still have issues wanting to eat it. Broccoli. Eff you. I will not even say the word. Green tree of death is more like it. I never once was visiting the Porcelain God though. Just felt queezy. :)
Now you can either look adorable or like a 75 year old woman when pregnant. Mom jeans. that are 60 bucks a pop for pregnancy. and some lame ass shirts from motherhood. Forever 21 baby!! haha. I fit in my clothes until 5 months. I used the rubberband around my button so I wouldn't have to look like a fool. Oh but I did. I looked like a member from Teen Mom. I looked like a wee little lass knocked up. With what looked like a small alien at 10 weeks. Cute little one at that!! Then You don't buy comfortable bras because your boobs are growing to the size of Mother Russia. Sore, itchy, killing your back! No one tells you that you will love and hate your boobs at the same time.
I was an emotional roller coaster. I cried about rain in Hawaii. Ruined my plans for the beach! I was so mad. I cried. Who cries over rain?! Really?! It rained EVERY SINGLE DAY THERE! I cried during certain songs. Other kids tripping over themselves. Youtube videos of this and that. Love stories... Yes, love stories.
When you are reading some of this book to the baby daddy and you wonder if his penis decided to tuck into his stomach and not come out because of what your va jay jay will look like after birth, or something so beautiful being pushed out a hole the size of a marble.
Birthing Videos.... Oh good god! Hi, no. just no. NEXT!
Laughing so hard you piddle your pants. Yes, My father told me about his first job ever in Cali when he was 16 at a KFC, and I died so hard... I went, Oops. Ran to the bathroom as I am trickling myself. and barely made it to the toilet. I did a couple times. And you don't stop laughing either. Everyone has stopped and you are sitting there snorting like a hog laughing your ass off at something that ended years ago, in a movie scene flashback, jokes, youtube videos, the works!!
Feeling your child move for the first time is not as cute as you think. You are freaked out, WHAT JUST HAPPENED!? Then you realize you felt a butterfly flutter inside and it was your bundle of happiness moving! MOVING?! Yes. moving. And you become enlightened and glowing and telling everyone in the household what just happened.
The rest is pretty much simple, miserable and huge, Ready to push a watermelon out of your va jay jay as you get your 12" needle down your back and a happy button for drugs so you don't feel your child coming out of said hole while you are shaking like you are about to have a seizure because your body is about to go through a huge change and NO ONE TOLD ME THAT!! Then your doctor is cutting you open and going to stitch you back up with a hooked needle. Holding your loved one's hands and pushing, praying you don't poop on the doc's face or on any of the nurses. Oh! and your water breaking is the best feeling of relief ever. Until about a minute later...
You hear that first cry and you start bawling! Happy tears! I was so happy and speechless. I didn't even know what to say. I just said, Hello, Gunner. and held his adorable little hand while his fingers wrapped around my index finger. Passing him back off to the nurses who are bathing him and the sloo of family members that come in there and you don't know if you are still urinating everywhere while the epidural is wearing off. All you want to do is hold your child and everyone is still holding them while everyone is encouraging you to eat and you don't wanna vomit everywhere all over because food is just a NO.
Your RN comes in and baby daddy takes the baby so you can get up and go to the bathroom and attempt this gangster limp thing you have going on because you are swollen, look like your nose is broken, and just dropped 25 pounds... lol. You then sit on the pot with you RN there staring at you making sure you are emptying your bladder and douching yourself with warm water bottle into your stitches and doing this for the next 7 days.
I love my child and everything. I LOVED being pregnant. The summer heat here in OK didn't want me to be the last month of it. I didn't enjoy the random people coming up and touching my belly. No. NEVER EVER DO THAT. EVER.
Monday, February 11, 2013
Good things come to those who wait..
Alrighty then... haha watched some Ace Ventura this weekend. Do not pass go. Do not collect your 200 dollars. lord...
As I was driving back from Lee's Summit this weekend. I had my ipod on shuffle. Realized what the hell happened to Missy Elliot? Oh my! Hanson! MMMMBOP! I had to step off the country for a bit, since according to the guy I like, I should. Country burns his ears. So, listening to The Used. They need to come out with some new stuff. Mumford and Sons, they are amazing. They performed at the Grammy's and even won Album of the Year!! September 6-7 I will be in Guthrie jammin out. Trust me. I will. You beautiful British people. Now, The Black Keys, The Lumineers also stole my heart. They already did before, But last night was awesome! Smashmouth.. Yeah Smashmouth. What happened to you? I was loving some 90s. I did get some looks on the way home as I was singing like a freak. I should have got a grammy. Best karaoke session ever! 90s and 80s music! The Smithereens in there went to the 70s even with some MJ. Midtown. The Starting Line. My goodness, Linkin Park. Weezer, I remembered certain nights with some people back in the day. Listening to this stuff. Lit. Music these days... turning into CRAP. Nicki Minaj, Frank Ocean?! What the HELL was that? It was some weird words. Words? I sat there with my jaw hanging off pretty much. Get off your Autotune... And Nicki... You giving music advice on idol is like Taylor Swift giving relationship advice. I wouldn't take it from either of ya'll... Swift is the problem in her relationships. haha. She should get with my ex husband. I think they are both fucked in the head. haha. We need some more people like Freddie Mercury. He was an absolute God with music and the words that flowed out of his angelic voice was magical. Queen was by far one of the best bands ever to walk this Earth. Old Crow Medicine Show, George Strait, ACDC, Metallica, Pantera, Nitty Gritty Dirt Band, Alabama, good bands. Lil Wayne needs a reality check. Most rappers do. I have it on my ipod due to my sister listening to it. What the hell is Justin Bieber? Music then was written by themselves or help with one writer and produced by one person. Not 7 people, not 9 producers. Real music.
Now, to a new subject.... This past year has been absolute shit for Gunner and I as some of you know. Caught my husband cheating still. He said he "regretted having a baby. He wasn't ready like he thought." Left him. 1/2 our shit is still in Charleston. He sold some of it. Without my permission. I get a call saying he has gone missing from housing he was supposed to be there and he still hasn't shown up for three days. Why is my name still on stuff with him on that house?! Personally, I wouldn't care if the man caught AIDS and died the day before they found a cure. He is so rude, and emotionally abusive. Calls our son a that. Doesn't pay up. I want my shit back. Mainly all of Gunner's stuff, and my 5 pair of cowboy boots! Also, all of my grandma's belongings she left us before she passed. I refuse to go alone or I would kick his ass. I plan on making 2013 the best for us! Now, I want a second job, and preferably a job where I can sleep decently. Not 3 days of 6 hours of sleep. And absolute zero energy drinks out my ass. I had by far one of the best weekends in a long time. My cheeks still hurt from the constant smiling. Waking up smiling! That shit right there people doesn't happen. Smiling is like a rare thing. Since 99.9% of the time in my marriage I was bawling my eyes out like a dumbass. So, as Phil Robertson says. That makes me happy, happy, happy!
I believe my son was so spoiled rotten this last weekend, he is throwing temper tantrums to Tatoonie and back. But now, he is laying on his little couch thing, drinking his sippy watching Gabba! Tomorrow I blog about pregnancy. Ya'll better wear a diaper. You will be laughing :)
As I was driving back from Lee's Summit this weekend. I had my ipod on shuffle. Realized what the hell happened to Missy Elliot? Oh my! Hanson! MMMMBOP! I had to step off the country for a bit, since according to the guy I like, I should. Country burns his ears. So, listening to The Used. They need to come out with some new stuff. Mumford and Sons, they are amazing. They performed at the Grammy's and even won Album of the Year!! September 6-7 I will be in Guthrie jammin out. Trust me. I will. You beautiful British people. Now, The Black Keys, The Lumineers also stole my heart. They already did before, But last night was awesome! Smashmouth.. Yeah Smashmouth. What happened to you? I was loving some 90s. I did get some looks on the way home as I was singing like a freak. I should have got a grammy. Best karaoke session ever! 90s and 80s music! The Smithereens in there went to the 70s even with some MJ. Midtown. The Starting Line. My goodness, Linkin Park. Weezer, I remembered certain nights with some people back in the day. Listening to this stuff. Lit. Music these days... turning into CRAP. Nicki Minaj, Frank Ocean?! What the HELL was that? It was some weird words. Words? I sat there with my jaw hanging off pretty much. Get off your Autotune... And Nicki... You giving music advice on idol is like Taylor Swift giving relationship advice. I wouldn't take it from either of ya'll... Swift is the problem in her relationships. haha. She should get with my ex husband. I think they are both fucked in the head. haha. We need some more people like Freddie Mercury. He was an absolute God with music and the words that flowed out of his angelic voice was magical. Queen was by far one of the best bands ever to walk this Earth. Old Crow Medicine Show, George Strait, ACDC, Metallica, Pantera, Nitty Gritty Dirt Band, Alabama, good bands. Lil Wayne needs a reality check. Most rappers do. I have it on my ipod due to my sister listening to it. What the hell is Justin Bieber? Music then was written by themselves or help with one writer and produced by one person. Not 7 people, not 9 producers. Real music.
Now, to a new subject.... This past year has been absolute shit for Gunner and I as some of you know. Caught my husband cheating still. He said he "regretted having a baby. He wasn't ready like he thought." Left him. 1/2 our shit is still in Charleston. He sold some of it. Without my permission. I get a call saying he has gone missing from housing he was supposed to be there and he still hasn't shown up for three days. Why is my name still on stuff with him on that house?! Personally, I wouldn't care if the man caught AIDS and died the day before they found a cure. He is so rude, and emotionally abusive. Calls our son a that. Doesn't pay up. I want my shit back. Mainly all of Gunner's stuff, and my 5 pair of cowboy boots! Also, all of my grandma's belongings she left us before she passed. I refuse to go alone or I would kick his ass. I plan on making 2013 the best for us! Now, I want a second job, and preferably a job where I can sleep decently. Not 3 days of 6 hours of sleep. And absolute zero energy drinks out my ass. I had by far one of the best weekends in a long time. My cheeks still hurt from the constant smiling. Waking up smiling! That shit right there people doesn't happen. Smiling is like a rare thing. Since 99.9% of the time in my marriage I was bawling my eyes out like a dumbass. So, as Phil Robertson says. That makes me happy, happy, happy!
I believe my son was so spoiled rotten this last weekend, he is throwing temper tantrums to Tatoonie and back. But now, he is laying on his little couch thing, drinking his sippy watching Gabba! Tomorrow I blog about pregnancy. Ya'll better wear a diaper. You will be laughing :)
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